Wednesday, May 27, 2009 
nobody knows this
sometimes things just wont turn out the way u want them to be.
sometimes i just feel so suffocated but i have no place to pour them out.
sometimes there's a mixture of all the negative feelings in me but i cant explain where they came from.
i may seem cheerful and happy all the time, but i do have really awful times in the past, and nobody would want to experience it, its like the worst nightmare for a child.
its more than being lonely, sad and depressed... like i said, its a mixture of everything.
i used to be the total opposite of what i am now, and im glad that i've been through the one of darkest point of my life.
this is like the part of a mega big "secret" of mine that i dont intend to tell anyone yet. its like a time bomb that triggers every now and then, and when it triggers all the memories just flow into my mind which makes me want to cry my heart out.
ok im feeling much better now :)
sometimes i just feel so suffocated but i have no place to pour them out.
sometimes there's a mixture of all the negative feelings in me but i cant explain where they came from.
i may seem cheerful and happy all the time, but i do have really awful times in the past, and nobody would want to experience it, its like the worst nightmare for a child.
its more than being lonely, sad and depressed... like i said, its a mixture of everything.
i used to be the total opposite of what i am now, and im glad that i've been through the one of darkest point of my life.
this is like the part of a mega big "secret" of mine that i dont intend to tell anyone yet. its like a time bomb that triggers every now and then, and when it triggers all the memories just flow into my mind which makes me want to cry my heart out.
ok im feeling much better now :)
ranted at 11:53 PM 
