Saturday, January 9, 2010 
happily never after
I am writing this post with a heavy heart.
It happened so suddenly, so sudden that I hoped it was all nothing but a dream.
You called me suddenly in the middle of the night, and I thought you were concerned about me.
But instead of words of care and concern, all I got was hurtful words from you.
Words that are so hurtful, it pierced my heart as you speak, and tore me up into a million pieces.
My vision started to blur, and tears kept rolling down my cheeks.
Why? Why did you expect so much from me?
Where is the love you gave me? I could feel it no more.
I cried for the entire night, hoping everything will be fine the next morning.
But no it did not, the call came and its those hurtful words again.
My swollen eyes were filled with tears, my lips were dried up.
It's still the same no matter what I say.
I'm sorry I couldn't do what you wanted me to do.
Where is the love you gave me? I could feel it no more.
I want to break free, I want to be myself again.
I felt so tired, vulnerable and weak, both physically and mentally.
No more boyfriends, no more commitments, no more tears.
I just want to be happy again.
Goodbye my love, I'll miss you.
It happened so suddenly, so sudden that I hoped it was all nothing but a dream.
You called me suddenly in the middle of the night, and I thought you were concerned about me.
But instead of words of care and concern, all I got was hurtful words from you.
Words that are so hurtful, it pierced my heart as you speak, and tore me up into a million pieces.
My vision started to blur, and tears kept rolling down my cheeks.
Why? Why did you expect so much from me?
Where is the love you gave me? I could feel it no more.
I cried for the entire night, hoping everything will be fine the next morning.
But no it did not, the call came and its those hurtful words again.
My swollen eyes were filled with tears, my lips were dried up.
It's still the same no matter what I say.
I'm sorry I couldn't do what you wanted me to do.
Where is the love you gave me? I could feel it no more.
I want to break free, I want to be myself again.
I felt so tired, vulnerable and weak, both physically and mentally.
No more boyfriends, no more commitments, no more tears.
I just want to be happy again.
Goodbye my love, I'll miss you.
ranted at 7:10 PM 
