i am busy doing projects recently.

i hate doing projects! why cant they just let us take exams instead!!! i still have one presentation, two projects and one group assignment left. plus all the tests and quizzes and the main exams before the semester finally ends.



i am quite contented with my life now(except the projects part haha). my classmates are still as funny as ever, and they are always there to cheer me up. my girlfriends are always just a phone call away and they are always there to share my worries, they are always there for me to hug and cry my heart out. my sister is always there to gossip with me about random people at home hahaha!

and my dad, he is the most wonderful father in the whole world. i felt so bad that i've neglected him for so long. he is the only guy in the world who will give me unconditional love and ask for nothing in return. how can i neglect him for other guys who have loved me and expected me to love them in return? guys come and go, but he is always there to protect me for the past 18 years. sometimes i feel that im a very bad daugther because i dont spend much time with him but he has spent so much time and effort to bring me up.

for the past 18 years i've been through a lot of ups and downs(and to be honest my life is a bit dramatic when i was young haha), and everytime i fall down he is the main reason why i am able to get up and continue my life with a smile. i would not be where i am now if not for him. i may be in heaven already or maybe i wont even be born into this world in the first place. he gave me strength and taught me how to be strong, be brave, be happy. he always turn my nightmares into sweet dreams. he is the most important person in my life. and i always smile to myself everytime i look at the spare phone hahaha =)

ok i need to stop now before i start to think about the past again and cry infront of the computer screen =.=

i love you dad, and i will love you more than any other man i meet along the way =)

I am writing this post with a heavy heart.
It happened so suddenly, so sudden that I hoped it was all nothing but a dream.
You called me suddenly in the middle of the night, and I thought you were concerned about me.
But instead of words of care and concern, all I got was hurtful words from you.
Words that are so hurtful, it pierced my heart as you speak, and tore me up into a million pieces.
My vision started to blur, and tears kept rolling down my cheeks.
Why? Why did you expect so much from me?
Where is the love you gave me? I could feel it no more.

I cried for the entire night, hoping everything will be fine the next morning.
But no it did not, the call came and its those hurtful words again.
My swollen eyes were filled with tears, my lips were dried up.
It's still the same no matter what I say.
I'm sorry I couldn't do what you wanted me to do.
Where is the love you gave me? I could feel it no more.

I want to break free, I want to be myself again.
I felt so tired, vulnerable and weak, both physically and mentally.
No more boyfriends, no more commitments, no more tears.
I just want to be happy again.

Goodbye my love, I'll miss you.

alright i have something to say. last wednesday(i think?), i was blogging about day 3 while chatting with jasmine who was very angry and kept scolding fuck LOL. then when i was halfway there, she sent me a link to watch some funny cartoon. then i kept watching a lot of episodes and got tired of looking at the same 4 faces so i closed the window(together with my blog entry) and went to watch something else.
NOW I AM TOTALLY NOT IN THE MOOD TO CONTINUE IT!!!

its new year now so i shall have some new year resolutions!! :DD
1) gain weight. i wana be 45kg!
2) exercise. i hate my skinny arms omg i need some muscles there.
3) get good results. preferably all As but its impossible =.=
4) finish my assignments and projects way before the deadline. IMPOSSIBLE but still! =.=
5) BUY A NEW MOUSE. maybe i shall wait until its totally spoilt first because i lazy go buy.

ok i cant think of anymore crap now. need to go gossip with my girlfriend now hahahaha!
i wana eat xiao long bao =(
bye!

YO im cuii =D
14/05/1991
TP BZE K806
currently attached to ♥samy tan♥