Wednesday, May 27, 2009 
nobody knows this
sometimes things just wont turn out the way u want them to be.
sometimes i just feel so suffocated but i have no place to pour them out.
sometimes there's a mixture of all the negative feelings in me but i cant explain where they came from.
i may seem cheerful and happy all the time, but i do have really awful times in the past, and nobody would want to experience it, its like the worst nightmare for a child.
its more than being lonely, sad and depressed... like i said, its a mixture of everything.
i used to be the total opposite of what i am now, and im glad that i've been through the one of darkest point of my life.
this is like the part of a mega big "secret" of mine that i dont intend to tell anyone yet. its like a time bomb that triggers every now and then, and when it triggers all the memories just flow into my mind which makes me want to cry my heart out.
ok im feeling much better now :)
sometimes i just feel so suffocated but i have no place to pour them out.
sometimes there's a mixture of all the negative feelings in me but i cant explain where they came from.
i may seem cheerful and happy all the time, but i do have really awful times in the past, and nobody would want to experience it, its like the worst nightmare for a child.
its more than being lonely, sad and depressed... like i said, its a mixture of everything.
i used to be the total opposite of what i am now, and im glad that i've been through the one of darkest point of my life.
this is like the part of a mega big "secret" of mine that i dont intend to tell anyone yet. its like a time bomb that triggers every now and then, and when it triggers all the memories just flow into my mind which makes me want to cry my heart out.
ok im feeling much better now :)
ranted at 11:53 PM 
Tuesday, May 26, 2009 will u give me ur heart?
OMGGGGGG.
i was like searching for photos of body organs and i saw lots of bloody photos =.= the worst one is whereby a man(most probably sick in his mind) went to make breads that looks like bloody human heads and body parts. it looks so real and disgusting i wonder who will dare to swallow it down their throats.
OMGGGGGG. i was scraching my neck just now and it bled. i hope i can sleep well later =.=
i really wanted to put the photos here lor, but im so freaked out now to the extend that i dont even dare to click on the link =.= but i think three of the links below should be correct =/
P.S. ENTER AT YOUR OWN RISK.
http://surferjerry.com/weird/human-body-parts-for-sale
i was like searching for photos of body organs and i saw lots of bloody photos =.= the worst one is whereby a man(most probably sick in his mind) went to make breads that looks like bloody human heads and body parts. it looks so real and disgusting i wonder who will dare to swallow it down their throats.
OMGGGGGG. i was scraching my neck just now and it bled. i hope i can sleep well later =.=
i really wanted to put the photos here lor, but im so freaked out now to the extend that i dont even dare to click on the link =.= but i think three of the links below should be correct =/
P.S. ENTER AT YOUR OWN RISK.
http://surferjerry.com/weird/human-body-parts-for-sale
i think i went to the first link. and apparrently a lot of people saw these photos before. i really hoped im the most kuku one and wont see these things in my entire life please :(
i shall divert my attention to other stuffs! hmm let me see.....
this super cute picture!! its like the daily life route of people like me right, studying and super no life one.
WOAH I CANT BELIEVE I FOUND THIS IN MY COM.
the stupid prank my sister and i did last year LOLLLL!!! we were super bored at our cousins' house so we decided to do this to her com HAHAHA. the expression on her face when she saw this was priceless xD
wait.... did i post this picture before? cant remember with my lollipop-sized brain :X
ranted at 1:22 AM
Monday, May 18, 2009 its all about money
i cant believe i went all the way to sengkang to do the law project man.
im a very kuku girl, i have never, ever went to sengkang before until now LOL. luckily the lonely trip is not very boring with mp3 and psp's loco roco 2 on hand =P
my groupmates are a brunch of funny fellows. our project topic is on the legalisation of the sale of body organs. i was against legalising it and i was telling them that if the organs were to cost like 20k each then the poor will not have enough money to afford it while the rich can buy all the organs they want as long as they have the money. and guess what my groupmates reply? "oh, then too bad, they can only wait to die lor!" in a joking tone. and i exclaim, "WA U ALL SO EVIL ONE AH!" hahaha evil yet true =.= and one of them proceeded to say "aiya can one la, pay by installment can liao! when u buy TV also can pay by installment ma" and in the end we chose to legalise it because they say the government can subsidise some amount for the poor and let them pay by installment WTH so funny right. i wonder how they can compare organs with TVs lor, they are not similar at all right =.=
sigh, life is so unfair right. the rich can buy anything they want and the poor can only sell their valuable parts in order to survive.
and my groupmate told me that there's this movie called "seven pounds". it is about a guy who accidentally killed seven people in a car crash and he is very guilty, so guilty to the extend that he went to find seven people who really needs help(organs) or they'll die, and then he killed himself so that he can donate his organs to them. the movie is called seven pounds because he donated his heart to a girl(with a weak heart) that he met and falls in love with. and yup, his heart weighs seven pounds. hmm interesting story, i wana watch it online when im free.
yes it is very touching. however reality tells me that there is no such man on earth who will sacrifice his life for other strangers. only money counts in this world. omg reality sucks :(
term test is coming soon. i have tons of projects and quizzes that piles up like a mountain. gotta go read through my notes for the graded lab. omg boring notes :(
bye :(
im a very kuku girl, i have never, ever went to sengkang before until now LOL. luckily the lonely trip is not very boring with mp3 and psp's loco roco 2 on hand =P
my groupmates are a brunch of funny fellows. our project topic is on the legalisation of the sale of body organs. i was against legalising it and i was telling them that if the organs were to cost like 20k each then the poor will not have enough money to afford it while the rich can buy all the organs they want as long as they have the money. and guess what my groupmates reply? "oh, then too bad, they can only wait to die lor!" in a joking tone. and i exclaim, "WA U ALL SO EVIL ONE AH!" hahaha evil yet true =.= and one of them proceeded to say "aiya can one la, pay by installment can liao! when u buy TV also can pay by installment ma" and in the end we chose to legalise it because they say the government can subsidise some amount for the poor and let them pay by installment WTH so funny right. i wonder how they can compare organs with TVs lor, they are not similar at all right =.=
sigh, life is so unfair right. the rich can buy anything they want and the poor can only sell their valuable parts in order to survive.
and my groupmate told me that there's this movie called "seven pounds". it is about a guy who accidentally killed seven people in a car crash and he is very guilty, so guilty to the extend that he went to find seven people who really needs help(organs) or they'll die, and then he killed himself so that he can donate his organs to them. the movie is called seven pounds because he donated his heart to a girl(with a weak heart) that he met and falls in love with. and yup, his heart weighs seven pounds. hmm interesting story, i wana watch it online when im free.
yes it is very touching. however reality tells me that there is no such man on earth who will sacrifice his life for other strangers. only money counts in this world. omg reality sucks :(
term test is coming soon. i have tons of projects and quizzes that piles up like a mountain. gotta go read through my notes for the graded lab. omg boring notes :(
bye :(
ranted at 12:39 AM
Friday, May 15, 2009 what birthday means
Yesterday was my birthday! :D
i wana thank my friends who went through the trouble of sms-ing me :)
i wana thank my classmates for celebrating my birthday with me :) a funny and embarressing one LOL.
i wana thank my boyfriend & co. for celebrating my birthday with me :) a nice and shocking one LOL.
and i almost had to stand on a chair for 2 times in 2 different restaurants =.= luckily my boyfriend helped me to reject the second one as the place is overcrowded with people haha.
AND IM FINALLY 18! :D
meaning i can go to M18 movies, i can buy alcohol, i can buy cigarettes, i can go to clubs and pubs, and most importantly i can get a car license!
u know actually i wanted to celebrate my 18th birthday chilling out at a pub, but that's what i thought like last year. and now i think it'll be a big waste of money and i'd rather spend it on food heh. i dont really like big celebrations and i prefer simple and heartwarming ones. im happy as long as im having food with people who cares about me.
aaron said that he used to share money with his friends to buy presents for his friends during birthdays and he expected something in return when his birthday comes, but nothing came back during his birthday. how true and i bet most people experienced similar senarios before. i too expected something from those people before, but it always ended up with disappointment. and now i'll just wish the best for them in my heart and expect nothing from them.
one year older = one year wiser?
what birthday means to me...
birthday is the day when people who loves you, welcomes you to this beautiful world when you were finally born through the hard works of your mother. birthday is the day when you'll feel contented and happy even at tough times. birthday is the day when people will express their love and care to you. birthday is not about receiving presents, but a reminder to give presents to your parents during their birthdays for bringing you up over the years, for the love you've been receiving since you were born. i dont celebrate my birthday with my parents, its not because i dont want to, its because it is more important to celebrate theirs.
i didnt expect my birthday wish to be this simple. no im not gonna tell anyone muahahahaha =P
i wana thank my friends who went through the trouble of sms-ing me :)
i wana thank my classmates for celebrating my birthday with me :) a funny and embarressing one LOL.
i wana thank my boyfriend & co. for celebrating my birthday with me :) a nice and shocking one LOL.
and i almost had to stand on a chair for 2 times in 2 different restaurants =.= luckily my boyfriend helped me to reject the second one as the place is overcrowded with people haha.
AND IM FINALLY 18! :D
meaning i can go to M18 movies, i can buy alcohol, i can buy cigarettes, i can go to clubs and pubs, and most importantly i can get a car license!
u know actually i wanted to celebrate my 18th birthday chilling out at a pub, but that's what i thought like last year. and now i think it'll be a big waste of money and i'd rather spend it on food heh. i dont really like big celebrations and i prefer simple and heartwarming ones. im happy as long as im having food with people who cares about me.
aaron said that he used to share money with his friends to buy presents for his friends during birthdays and he expected something in return when his birthday comes, but nothing came back during his birthday. how true and i bet most people experienced similar senarios before. i too expected something from those people before, but it always ended up with disappointment. and now i'll just wish the best for them in my heart and expect nothing from them.
one year older = one year wiser?
what birthday means to me...
birthday is the day when people who loves you, welcomes you to this beautiful world when you were finally born through the hard works of your mother. birthday is the day when you'll feel contented and happy even at tough times. birthday is the day when people will express their love and care to you. birthday is not about receiving presents, but a reminder to give presents to your parents during their birthdays for bringing you up over the years, for the love you've been receiving since you were born. i dont celebrate my birthday with my parents, its not because i dont want to, its because it is more important to celebrate theirs.
i didnt expect my birthday wish to be this simple. no im not gonna tell anyone muahahahaha =P
ranted at 2:32 PM
Wednesday, May 13, 2009 a girl trapped in a guy's body?
OH.MY.GOD.
i bet no one, NO ONE will expect such a voice to come out from a guy's mouth lor!
he freaking did something that most of the girls cant do =.=
"It's like a dog meowing" LOL, totally true.
i bet no one, NO ONE will expect such a voice to come out from a guy's mouth lor!
he freaking did something that most of the girls cant do =.=
"It's like a dog meowing" LOL, totally true.
ranted at 4:32 PM
Monday, May 11, 2009 im still alive
and this time im not down with the IFBI(I keep Forgetting to Blog Illness).
its because im busy watching naruto after getting bored of waiting for one piece to update once every week, its torturing man :(
i love Rock Lee from naruto! he's like so cute can! with his super huge eyes and watermelon head LOL.
oh and the church camp is quite fun :) made some really nice friends here and there.
but the place where we sleep is horrible lor. its like totally made of wood, so when people walk on the wooden floor the whole place will shake like there's an earthquake =.= nobody can imagine the numbers of earthquakes we experience when sleeping lor. we can literally measure the magnitude already haha.
oh and there are puppies! :DD 8 of them! :DDDD they are so cute i wana bring them home!!!!!
its because im busy watching naruto after getting bored of waiting for one piece to update once every week, its torturing man :(
i love Rock Lee from naruto! he's like so cute can! with his super huge eyes and watermelon head LOL.
oh and the church camp is quite fun :) made some really nice friends here and there.
but the place where we sleep is horrible lor. its like totally made of wood, so when people walk on the wooden floor the whole place will shake like there's an earthquake =.= nobody can imagine the numbers of earthquakes we experience when sleeping lor. we can literally measure the magnitude already haha.
oh and there are puppies! :DD 8 of them! :DDDD they are so cute i wana bring them home!!!!!
this puppy hates the camera =.= omg i look so fugly here, super sweaty and sticky and smelly from playing games under the hot hot sun. went to hot spring somemore sia, hot to the max.
ok i wana watch naruto now, bye =)
ranted at 11:26 PM
